Where I’d Rather Be Today…

Where I’d rather be today

Its been a while since I have been able to get out into the woods and I’m feeling it. Whenever I’m feeling super discontent with just about everything I know its time for me to get out into nature so I can refuel. Sure, the Field of Serenity is great, but it is still in the city with the sound of cars and large warehouses surrounding it. Its just not the same.

I have been using the Field of Serenity as a substitute for hiking through the woods because it is convenient. Its what I can do right now. I haven’t had a vehicle I trust to make the trip out nor have I had the time for such an adventure. The Field of Serenity has given me small doses of the healing provided by getting away from it all but it has become a little routine and has stopped giving me the reprieve from the day to day that nourishes me. Unfortunately, I still don’t have a vehicle I trust to make the journey, time is still tight, and I’m at a loss as how to get me where I need to go. Yes, need.

I could meditate, taking my inner self out where I want to be, and that would be beneficial in its own right but, again, its not the same. Am I just being picky? Demanding? Not taking advantage of the resources I do have available to me because they don’t fit my ideal concept of what I need? I’m willing to concede this all could be true. I just know what has always worked for me in the past.

Yes, I’m whining. I’m tired despite having gotten enough sleep. Things have been so stressful, lately, and I am having my own pity party. No temper tantrum but that doesn’t mean I don’t want to have one. A temper tantrum wouldn’t solve anything so I suck it up and keep moving forward, left foot, right foot, until I can find the solution.

What fuels you? Where do you go when you just need to step out of the day to day?