1999 Subaru Legacy Stationwagon, Taking Time for Creativity…

I plan on being creative today. I managed to squeeze in a little bit of creative time, yesterday, but it just didn’t feel like enough. We spent the day looking for a new vehicle since I sold the Jeep (finally!) the day before. The upside to not getting to spend more time being creative yesterday is we actually found a vehicle that will work for us for everything but driving for Uber. Here it is:

1999 Subaru Legacy

1999 Subaru Legacy

This car is rated to get an average of 22mpg in the city and 29mpg on the highway. Since the vehicle is almost 20 years old, I’m going to guess that the average mpg is more along the lines of 18-20 in the city and around 25 on the freeway. Not bad at all. Much more efficient than the Jeep, though there is a little sadness over the Jeep being gone. I really did love that vehicle. Oh well. Onward and upward, right?

I mentioned that I had gotten to pick up some planting pots and some yard art at the job Lance was on last week. I decided everything needs to have some…freshening up done to it. So, I headed over to Home Depot for some super fine sanding paper, a sanding sponge, and some spray paint.

Once back home, I grabbed my sanding sponge and started sanding down the bees.

My cute little bees before

My cute little bees before…

Sorry about the fuzziness of the photo. I didn’t clean of the lens on my phone.

I was able to sand most of the bees with just the sanding sponge. For the legs and arms, planter holding ring, feet, and behind the eyes, I took a quarter sheet of sanding paper and folded it into a square so I could wrap it around the item (legs, arms, planter ring), tuck it easily behind the eyes to get down in behind them, and get in super close where the different parts join together. I think this probably took me all of 10-15 minutes for both of them.

Bee base coat

Bee base coat

I then wiped them down with vinegar water to get the sanding dust off of them and to clean off any other ‘stuffs.’ It was sunny out so I just set up the cardboard I wanted to place them on for painting and let them dry in the sun for about 5 minutes. I then sprayed both bees completely black, front and back. I plan on spraying the bottoms of their feet since they could use some new rust protection. The paint I used was Rust-oleum’s Painter’s Touch 2x Ultra Cover Paint+Primer in Gloss Black. Here are the bees drying in the sun:

Base coat drying

Base coat drying

About the time I finished painting the bees all black, it was time to head out to look at a few vehicles. Since it is going to be sunny, again, today, followed by rain for the rest of the week, I plan on painting the stripes on the one bee and spraying the wings on both. I’m going to need to pick up new ‘glass stones’ for the eyes. Each bee is missing one eye. I also need to pick up a small container of an accent paint for the designing on one of the bee’s wings.

While the bees are drying in between steps, I am going to start cleaning off and lightly sanding the planter pots I picked up with the bees. They’ve definitely seen some weather. Lance suggested adding some tape in the shape of grass or leaves to some of the planters before painting them. I like the idea. I will have to try it on at least one of the pots to see what I think of the finished product. I’ll use the same paint as I used for the bees, just in different colors. Should be interesting!!

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43 Days Until Spring…

How Many Days Until Spring...

How Many Days Until Spring…

Spring is sooo close!! I’m excited! The pictures of what the gardens will look like this year have been swimming around in my head for quite a bit now but I have been trying to not get too focused on it. Focusing too much on the approach of Spring seems to just make it that much harder to wait for. It seems to be helping to keep me out of complete discontent with the weather and cold, though it doesn’t seem to quell the excitement and desire to get out into the dirt and make things pretty.

Lance has been doing some work with our dear friends. They are doing a clean-up, update, and beautify on a house. The budget on this one isn’t super but work is work and Lance seems to be happy to be working on something that is a bit closer to his main skill set than just cleaning. This makes me happy, as well.

On this job, there were a bunch of larger plant pots, some buckets, and some yard art type planters. I was told I could have anything I wanted so I loaded up the Jeep with a bunch of it. This, of course, adds to the excitement of approaching Spring. I’m not really a yard art type of girl – most of it seems…tacky to me, but there were a few yard art planters I just had to have. One is a wheelbarrow type thing that has a spot for a planter, and the other two are bees that hold a pot. I have to admit I love the bees. They’re sooo cute!

I have some ideas for the things I brought home. The bees, though extremely adorable as they are, I think need to be repainted. They’ve seen some weather and their coloring is a bit worn. I think repainting them will be fun. The rest of the planters/pots have also seen some weather and I think I can do something with them to make them more visually appealing. Since these are the resin type pots, I think maybe some spray paint for plastic is the way to go. Maybe I’ll get creative with those instead of just giving them a coating or two. We will see what I come up with.

I’ve been spending a bit of time on Pinterest, lately, pinning all the plant type pins to my gardening hacks and ideas board. I’ve also come across quite a few DIY garden decorating stuff that I think I just might have to give a try. There is one for making those mirrored gazing globes, something I have been attracted to since the first time I saw one but could never justify the cost of buying. They can be a little on the costly side, in my opinion. Maybe I’ll do a walk-through with photos. We’ll see. I know I’m going to be super busy with cleaning and driving, but I have decided that the only way to hold onto sanity through it all is to give myself the time to garden and be creative. What’s that saying about the best laid plans? :)

I have someone coming to look at the Jeep today. If they are happy with it, they are going to put some money down to hold it until their tax return comes in. I have to admit that part of me will be sad to see the Jeep go when it does, but I also know that it is what needs to happen. It just isn’t gas efficient and I’m trying to save some money. Fun vehicles will come later. Besides, a minivan has always seemed to work the best for all that we do.

Well, I’m off to face the day!! Have a great one, Everyone!!

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Uber and AC/DC Concert…

The Tacoma Dome

The Tacoma Dome

Last night was crazy!! The AC/DC concert definitely provided a bunch of ride requests, most of which were in surge zones. Surge zones are areas where there is a high demand for rides, so the base fare goes up, starting at 1.2x the base fare on up. I’ve seen it as high as 3.9x, though I know it does go higher. I’m not sure what the surge was at for my last client last night (early this morning), but when I saw the end fare amount this morning, my eyes nearly fell out of my head. Last night, I covered my car payment for this coming Monday, plus a bit. Total time spent out Uber-ing: around 8 hours. I was making about $28/hr. Woot!!

I have to admit that the post-concert driving was a bit more challenging, frustrating, but it is also where I made most of the money last night. Black Sabbath is this Saturday and Sunday, so I’ll definitely get back out in concert traffic, then. So far, I’m enjoying this whole Uber thing and, each time I drive, the nervousness lessens a little bit.

If there is anything that I have to complain about with this driving gig is the navigation programs. Through the Uber Partner app, you have the choice of choosing either Waze or Google Maps as your navigation program. I converted to Waze a few years ago when Google Maps started really messing up its direction, ending me in places nowhere near where I wanted to go.

I hadn’t had any problems with Waze until I started driving for Uber. Waze has created a few interesting (not in a good way) navigational errors over the past week of using it, which I mentioned in a previous post. Some of its end location routing is “as the crow flies” and not something that can be accomplished with a car. Last night, I just let my clients know that the navigation was apparently overwhelmed by all of the concert traffic so let me know if the way it was taking us didn’t seem right and I would defer to them for directions. No one seemed to be upset about this. In fact, everyone seemed to be more than willing to give directions when/if needed. I really haven’t had any clients that have been difficult, which is nice.

My last ride last night was fun. I picked up three guys from the concert and they were a complete hoot! They obviously had a great time at the concert. One of them flirted with me for most of the almost hour drive. He was very disappointed that I am happily married, but this also did not deter him from flirting. It was fun. After dropping him off at around 1am, I headed home.

You would think that I would have been super tired, able to just fall down into bed and fall fast asleep, but this is not how it went. I spent about an hour reconnecting with home and reading a bit before being able to fall asleep. The only part that really sucked about that was that my husband was sleeping (a good thing, considering the time) so I didn’t have him to blab about my night to. Oh well. It was a good night and I’m looking forward to this weekend’s concerts.

Have a great day, Everyone!!

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Uber Driving, Cigarettes, and Chiropractic Re-Evaluation…

Oh my gosh, it feels like I haven’t written in forever! I had no intention of being away from writing for so long, but you know how it goes. Life comes along, swoops you up, takes you for a bit of a ride through a portal of timelessness, and the next thing you know, you look up, and a week, or more, has passed. Its been quite a ride.

The Uber driving is going well. I am still figuring out the right times, days, and places to be driving, but I covered the car payment this last week, plus a little, without it taking a ton of driving. There is a AC/DC concert tonight at the Tacoma Dome, so I’ll be out tonight. So far, I have had nothing but the nicest passengers, and I am truly enjoying myself.

The one difficulty I have had while driving is the navigation programs getting wonky. This wouldn’t be such a huge deal if it had been just me in the car, trying to find where I am picking up my next passenger, but, unfortunately, that is not how it turned out. I have learned to confirm what the navigation is telling me with the customer. The customers this has happened with have been great about it. Only one was a bit frustrated by it and gave me less than a 5 star review due to navigational difficulties. That’s ok. I’m still carrying a 4.88 rating. My friend that has been doing this for the past year and a half says navigation is the only thing that has ever brought his rating down at all, and he is carrying about the same rating as I am after having driven over 1000 clients.

Now, about smoking. I am still smoking. No, I have not smoked in the car at all, and I won’t, but I haven’t been able to put them down all together. When I have a lull between clients, I don’t really want to drive all over the place since the insurance charges me .094 cents a mile when I’m in the car by myself, so I find a good location to wait for my next engagement. I usually will get out of the car with the intent of having a smoke. Almost always, I get about 3 or 4 puffs into a cigarette before I get a notification of a pick-up, and then it’s usually a bit before I stop, again. I’m smoking considerably less and this is transferring over to when I’m at home.

I still want to quit smoking. I guess I’m just not making it a complete focus for me, right now. I’m also trying not to place judgement on it, either. I’m going through a lot adding a new thing to my schedule and it takes me a minute to shift gears. I’ve already had the emotional meltdown that tends to go along with shifting gears for me, so I should be settling in to my new schedule of responsibilities pretty soon, and I’ll start to feel a bit more in my comfort zone, then. If I haven’t completely put down the cigarettes by then, I will make it a main focus, again. I know I can do this, despite having failed at quitting smoking so many times before.

The Jeep and the truck both still have not sold, which is frustrating. I really need to get this vehicles gone so we can replace them with something that makes more sense, use-wise and money-wise. The Jeep is a gas hog and needs some TLC. The truck has limited spacing and… well, it just isn’t the right vehicle for us at this time. I really want to pick up another minivan. They have worked so well for us in the past, for whatever it was we needed/wanted to get done/do at the time. I’ll get it figured out.

Well, I had better go hop in the shower. I have my re-evaluation at the chiropractor today. This should be where he releases me from treatment. My fingers are super crossed. I’m feeling really great so I see no reason why he wouldn’t let me go. I’ll miss the weekly massages, but I’m definitely looking forward to having this one less thing on my schedule. This one appointment every week always seems like it takes up too much of the day, especially when I have things scheduled to get done that day. Anyway, this should turn out to be a really great day. I hope all of you have a great day, as well!!

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The Battle with Nicotine Continues, The Committee’s Calendar, Defensive Driving…

Well, I haven’t quit smoking all together, yet. The day after my last post, I had a complete nicotine relapse. The next day, I didn’t do very well, either. Yesterday was better but still not great. This morning, well, so far, ok. I have not smoked in the Prius at all, which I’m proud of myself for that, but I’m still smoking some and I’m somewhat frustrated about it.

I find that, over the last few days and the challenges I have had with not smoking, I am more disgusted with the whole smoking thing, in a really in my face sort of way. It also is reminding me of conversations about smoking my parents had with me after I started smoking as an invincible teen. I was soooo full of myself. “I can quit whenever I want” were the words that came out of my mouth, repeatedly. In the words of Bugs Bunny, “What a maroon.”

I’ve been realizing a lot of the reality of my younger days, how I thought, what I truly believed, how close minded I was to the imput/insight of others. It’s really embarrassing to me, when I look back at it. As a teen, I don’t think I could think straight, I was missing a key element to rational thought: experience.

I know that may sound a bit crazy, but I’m not sure how else to put it. When I think back on my teens, the upsets, the unbelievably out of control decisions and actions, the all-consuming belief that my parents just did not get it (whatever ‘it’ may have been at the time), crazy is the first thought that comes to mind. I was crazy, high on experiencing this other part of life that I had no idea even existed. Running with scissors just doesn’t seem to cover it. Maybe running with machetes is a bit more accurate, and seeing as I wasn’t very proficient at wielding machetes, I injured and/or destroyed more than the people and things around me, but myself. My life would probably be so much different now if I hadn’t been so completely insane.

With quitting smoking, all of my life seems to be in front of The Committee for review. Ok. My life seems to always be in a review status, but this week, it seems that a review of my entire life, from my first memories to present day, is almost the only thing on The Committee’s calendar.

It’s not all bad. There are some great memories that have been stored away coming to the surface, things that make me smile, or giggle, at the memory of. There are also a ton of memories that make me sad, remind me of people lost, innocences lost, complete blunders, really, really horrible decisions. The peppering of life, I suppose.

I am two steps away from being able to start to drive for Uber. I just need my business license and my For Hire license. I had to take two tests before I could move onto getting the licenses. One was a Tacoma Knowledge test and the other was a defensive driving course. I aced both of them. The defensive driving course was completely mind-numbing and extremely long. It all just seemed like common sense to me. Maybe that is because I taught myself to drive and have always been unsure of whether or not I knew what I was actually doing, if I was doing it right.

Well, I’m feeling myself searching for a cigarette, so I am going to go back inside and read or something to get my mind off of it. It’s probably going to be a couple more days before I blog, again, since it is still causing me to have some intense smoking cravings. Take care and have a great day, Everyone!!!

 

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The New Prius, Quitting Smoking, Blogging Trigger…

My Brand New 2015 Toyota Prius (it has less than 50 miles on it!!!)

My Brand New 2015 Toyota Prius (it has less than 50 miles on it!!!)

Well, I picked up the Prius yesterday! I made it about a block and a half before having a slight panic attack. The reality of it all set in at once. This is huge. I have really stepped out of my comfort zone. I hadn’t smoked at all at this point, so I am guessing the nicotine withdrawl had something to do with the panicking that happened. I stopped and bought a pack of cigarettes. I didn’t smoke in the car, and only ended up smoking a few drags off of a cigarette after buying the pack. Total cigarettes yesterday: around 4.

I’m going to be taking a break from the blog for a few days. I have always blogged with my morning coffee and, of course, smoking. As I am writing, now, all I want is a cigarette. It sort of sucks that I have linked the two activities together. Its ok, though. I think I will be fine with blogging and NOT insanely craving a cigarette once I get into this a few days. We shall see how that part goes. Quitting is happening, period.

I have some running around to do today. Vehicle inspection, talking with the Uber team at their Tacoma Support Center, swinging by the local police department to ask them about their recommended safety precautions for the For Hire driver. I think there are other things, as well, but I am going to have to sit down and make myself a list. Nicotine withdrawl seems to be scrambling my brain a little bit. Or, maybe, I’m just a bit overwhelmed.

It’s amazing how many of the intense desires to have a cigarette are linked to events. I knew this was true but to see them so clearly is somewhat disgusting. It’s almost as if each cigarette I have smoked over my lifetime has been some sort of bookmark, check point. It’s a really repulsive realization.

Anyway, I’m going to go. I’ll be back in a few days. Have a great few days, and wish me luck, Everyone!!

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Job in Poulsbo, Test Driving Vehicles for Uber Lease Option…

Poulsbo Job, January 2016

Poulsbo Job, January 2016

The trip out to Poulsbo for work was nice. It was really great to get out of here for a minute. It was so relaxing out there…no city noise, minimal traffic sounds from the random passing car, fresh air, great friends, minimal phone reception (mostly just texts and notifications), no internet access. I love when the things I do to bring money in take me to places like this.

The house that I did some work in is 128 years old, with its very own ghost. I only had one run in with the ghost, but it was fine. I couldn’t get a door open and when I pointed out that I only had one hand to use (I had a sheet of tile in my other hand), I felt the door push in toward me then swing away and open. I was the only alive person in the house at the time and the door is a glass door, meaning I could see through to the other side of it. How’s that for fun?

The tile went in nicely, though I do not think this is a tile I would ever pick as a backsplash in my own kitchen. It just looks too hard to clean, adequately. Anyway, I’m pleased with the end result:

Poulsbo kitchen tile job

Poulsbo kitchen tile job

My hands ache a bit from this job but I really enjoyed doing it. I think the owner (who I never did actually meet) will be pleased when he sees it.

Poulsbo kitchen

Poulsbo kitchen

Poulsbo kitchen

Poulsbo kitchen

Poulsbo kitchen

Poulsbo kitchen

 

 

 

 

 

 

It was nice to come home, because, well, its home. It’s where all the me stuff is. The dogs were happy to see me, Mr. Achilles especially. He ended up pretty much pinning me against the wall while I slept. Guess he wanted to make sure I wasn’t going to escape in the middle of the night. Silly dog.

I went at looked at cars available for the leasing program through/for Uber. I test drove a 2015 Prius, a 2016 Corolla, and a 2016 Camry, in that order. The Prius was nice. It handled nicely, was a nice ride, and I’ve learned quite a bit more about how the Prius works. There are a million buttons in cars now.

The Corolla, though a very nice looking car, wasn’t quite as nice as the Prius. I hate to say it but the Corolla left me feeling that the vehicle was never going to hold up to the type of driving I was going to put it through. It’s not a bad vehicle. I don’t know. I guess it just felt more like the type of vehicle you might get your kid before they head off to college.

The Camry was really nice to drive. The ride itself didn’t really feel much different from the Prius. It definitely has more room than the Prius, as in you could probably fit three adults is the back fairly comfortably. After driving the Camry, it was a real toss-up between it and the Prius.

I ended up going with the Prius. Gas mileage really was the determining factor. I’ll pick it up on Monday, after they have a chance to install the GPS tracker in it. It needs to have the tracker so that Uber can ping the car to know my location so it knows which ride requests to send me are best. This whole thing feels a bit surreal. I’m so excited.

I’ve decided I’m going to sell the Jeep. As much as I love it, it is just not the right vehicle for me, at this time. Besides, it is going to need some front end work on it and I am just not going to have the time to do anything with it. Plus, that is just more out going money.

I have also decided to sell Lance’s truck. We talked about it and he agreed that it makes the most sense to do so. Once we have sold both vehicles, I plan on finding another Windstar. That will be the everything else vehicle, such as cleans, side work, etc. I want to keep the Prius just for Uber, as much as possible.

I also do not want to smoke in the Prius, so today and tomorrow are it. I have bought my last pack of cigarettes, today. I’m making changes for the better in my life and I think it would be stupid to keep giving into unhealthy, unproductive habits that eat into money, not to mention life quality. I know its going to be challenging, the habit is over 30 years old ( O.O ), but its something I’ve wanted to make happen for a long time and I have really huge, easily seen incentives to stay strong and make it through the stinking withdrawal symptoms. The fact that I am going to be pretty busy getting all of the rest of the Uber stuffs together and getting the Jeep and truck ready to sell is a really good thing right now and I think that will help.

Well, I’d better get to going with my day. Have a great one, Everyone!!!

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A Trip to Poulsbo…

Poulsbo, WA

Poulsbo, WA

Well, I’m headed out to Poulsbo today. I think I must be excited about it. I have been awake since about 4:15am. I laid in bed trying to get myself to fall back asleep without luck. At 5:00, I gave up and crawled out of bed. There are a few things I need to take care of before heading out, so an earlier start probably isn’t a bad plan.

I want to clean out the Jeep before going. I should have taken care of this yesterday, but I just wasn’t feeling it. I fluctuated between getting up and doing it, and deciding that maybe I just won’t clean out the Jeep. It needs to happen. Besides, it would be nice to put the back seats up, for once, and maybe pretend that I am just taking a trip somewhere, you know, for fun.

Since I’m staying overnight in Poulsbo, I need to grab some clothes, my jammies, my book, camera, probably my laptop, though I am unsure of whether or not there will be internet access. Even if there isn’t internet access, it’s still probably a good idea to bring my laptop. At least, then, I will be able to write, and I’m sure I will have things to write.

I need to make sure I have extra batteries for my camera. Oh! And I want to download some of the audiobooks that I don’t have on the most current micro SD card in my phone. My slippers. I always tend to forget these when I go somewhere overnight. I’m obviously not a seasoned overnighter.

I’m debating on whether or not to take my fan. I always have it on to go to sleep, white noise. I’ve been doing that for so long that I find it difficult to fall asleep without it. Granted, I’m not going to be at home, will be doing tile, and will be out in the ‘sticks’ with all that fresh air…I may not need the fan. I guess I should take it, just in case.

Well, I had better get going on this stuff. The Jeep is a complete mess so its gong to take a minute. Have a great day, Everyone!!!

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An Introverted Extrovert, Highly Sensitive, or Both?

I’ve been processing some pretty heavy emotions the last couple of days. Sometimes, I don’t feel like I was really made for this world. I feel too much, am too easily damaged by the actions and words of others, feel scarred by each and every dead animal I see on or alongside the road. I have also found that I don’t really completely understand some code of conduct that seems to be a universal standard. Sometimes, I think it would be nice to just be a hermit, away from the goings on of the world, and all that is in it, except for what happens naturally in nature.

The Introvert Advantage

The Introvert Advantage

I’ve been listening to the book “The Introvert Advantage: How to Thrive in an Extrovert World” by Marti Olsen Laney, Psy.D. There was a point in time when I never would have even considered that I was an introvert. I have always seemed to seek out social interaction. Having a party? I’m there. A bunch of people getting together to go do something? Count me in.

It hasn’t been until the last 10-15 years that I have noticed that I’m not quite so keen on large gatherings or any other type of social interaction that involves more people than the ones I already know. I have found that these types of situations cause me such huge levels of stress/anxiety that I no longer want to be included in them. Heck. I rarely like to leave the ‘comfort’ of home, regardless of what home looks like.

I have to be honest and say that I have not been listening as intently to this book as I have most of the other audiobooks in my collection. I have a lot on my mind, am a bit overwhelmed by the things I have placed on my plate, lately, in an attempt to improve my life, so I find that The Committee sort of overtakes the listening ability and replaces it with the ‘solving the problems of the world’ brainstorming. The more of the book that makes it past The Committee to my conscious brain, the more I realize that I fit so many of the characteristics of an introvert that Dr. Laney talks about. This leads me to wonder, can an extrovert become an introvert later in life? Or was the person that seemed to be an extrovert actually an introvert, possibly trying to fit in? It also leads me to question just how damaged I may actually be.

No, I’m not blaming others for any damages I may have, though there are those that played their role. During my dancing on the wind leaf mode of living in my younger days, I definitely ran into quite a few things that left their mark in a less than positive way. Living life without direction definitely can set you up to experience a lot of that.

Anyway, the book is causing me to think a lot about how I approach so many things in life, these days. It also makes me question my reactions to a lot of things, as well. Dr. Laney talks a tiny bit about sensitives, more of a mention than anything, and it makes me curious. I think I am going to see what I can find in audiobook format on the topic of sensitives, if for no other reason than to try to understand if this is why absolutely everything seems to hurt my heart. If I understand it, maybe I can better protect/take care of myself.

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The H&R Block Interview, Bad Head Space Menehunes, Longing for Spring…

Well, the interview at H&R Block went well. It sounds like I’ll be doing that for a bit. I’ll know for sure by the end of Friday, though work won’t start for me for about 2 weeks. This will bring in a little bit more money, not as much as I could probably make driving for Uber, but every single penny helps.

I’m not walking away from the driving for Uber thing. Not at all. H&R Block is just something to help, though it won’t be enough to help get my poop in a group for Uber. Seeing how my cleaning schedule is extremely pitiful at the moment, and probably isn’t going to start to pick up again until some time in March, I have plenty of time available that I can fill up with driving, once everything is in order. Once the H&R Block gig is up, cleans should be back in full swing, or relatively close to it, and then I can drive in the evenings and weekends. While the H&R Block gig is going, I can drive whenever I don’t have a clean. I really have given this a lot of thought and can see the potential it has. It’s not going to make me rich, but it is going to help make money not such a stressful issue, possibly give me some breathing room.

The weather has me a bit funky right now. The cold, the rain, the cold…I’m ready for Spring in such a huge way. I know we haven’t even made it through a month of Winter, yet, but… I find that I am circling around my garden areas, repeatedly, anxious to get something going on in there. I miss the growth, the beauty. To have so much life/growth around, to be a part of it, to get to enjoy the rewards of the work applied – so restorative, healing, empowering, centering.

I’m not in great head space this morning. I’m not completely sure why. Yes, the weather is a part of it, but it is more than that. It could be the fact that I am stepping out of my comfort zone in a few areas. This always seems to put me in a bit of a funk, but I think that is because stepping out of my comfort zone tends to trigger a wrestling match with all of my insecurities, The Committee members that feel the need to make everything and everyone a negative force to be reckoned with. The upside is that I know that this is what is going on, though it doesn’t make it any easier to deal with, having to double-check, triple check every thought running through my head, having to ‘convince’ myself that these Committee members are story telling, not bestowing facts. It can be exhausting. This too shall pass, though probably not as quickly as I would hope for.

I’m heading to Poulsbo on Wednesday to lay some tile. I’m bringing my camera with me. I just know there are going to be scenes I will want to capture. Besides, I could really use some creative time and the views around Poulsbo can be breath-taking, so I’ve been told. I’ve never been to Poulsbo in my 26 years of living here, which seems a shame to me. So much beauty lives around me, easily accessible with a little driving (ok. sometimes a lot of driving), and I haven’t taken advantage of that. That needs to change.

Have a great day, Everyone!

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