Well, I picked up the Prius yesterday! I made it about a block and a half before having a slight panic attack. The reality of it all set in at once. This is huge. I have really stepped out of my comfort zone. I hadn’t smoked at all at this point, so I am guessing the nicotine withdrawl had something to do with the panicking that happened. I stopped and bought a pack of cigarettes. I didn’t smoke in the car, and only ended up smoking a few drags off of a cigarette after buying the pack. Total cigarettes yesterday: around 4.
I’m going to be taking a break from the blog for a few days. I have always blogged with my morning coffee and, of course, smoking. As I am writing, now, all I want is a cigarette. It sort of sucks that I have linked the two activities together. Its ok, though. I think I will be fine with blogging and NOT insanely craving a cigarette once I get into this a few days. We shall see how that part goes. Quitting is happening, period.
I have some running around to do today. Vehicle inspection, talking with the Uber team at their Tacoma Support Center, swinging by the local police department to ask them about their recommended safety precautions for the For Hire driver. I think there are other things, as well, but I am going to have to sit down and make myself a list. Nicotine withdrawl seems to be scrambling my brain a little bit. Or, maybe, I’m just a bit overwhelmed.
It’s amazing how many of the intense desires to have a cigarette are linked to events. I knew this was true but to see them so clearly is somewhat disgusting. It’s almost as if each cigarette I have smoked over my lifetime has been some sort of bookmark, check point. It’s a really repulsive realization.
Anyway, I’m going to go. I’ll be back in a few days. Have a great few days, and wish me luck, Everyone!!