Morning Beauty and Audiobooks Futlessness…

I walked out the door this morning to some of the most intriguing light. I had to walk out toward the air strip to properly see what was causing such light play. It was gorgeous. The clouds were nearly glowing with a soft, wispy pink and the light around me was a yellow pinkish hue. I love magical mornings.

I wanted to listen to Perfect Just As You Are by Pema Chodron yesterday but I apparently hadn’t downloaded it to my phone, yet. Bummer. I ended up listening to some of Merle’s Door by Ted Kerasote until I accidentally brushed my phone screen somehow and it started to play in backwards order – track 18, then 17, etc. I’m not sure what I did and am going to have to figure out where I was at in the book and what setting I need to fix in order to continue listening to the book, which I was enjoying.

I decided that I would try a different audiobook since Merle’s wasn’t going the right way. I started with The Law of Divine Compensation by Marianne Williamson. I didn’t make it very far into this one. I just wasn’t hearing something that empowered me, drew me in, made me think differently than I had or confirmed some beliefs I already have. I refuse to believe that because others live in a state of disbelief in connectedness, of the divine nature of each and every one of us, that it intimately affects my life in ways I believe should be contingent on myself alone. My actions, my beliefs, my thought processes, my reality, my outcomes. Anyway, I moved on after only about 4 or 5 tracks. I just couldn’t take in what they were putting out.

I moved on to Heart of Soul: Emotional Awareness by Gary Zukav and Linda Francis. I’m not sure how I am going to do with this one, either. The topic sounds interesting to me, but it is presented in a way that I find a little…distracting?…, making it hard for me to focus on. I know. Not a great description but it’s what I have right now. I’m trying to stick with it because, so far, I believe I have heard things I will find useful, practices that I may want to utilize. We shall see how it goes. I’ve downloaded Perfect Just As You Are to my phone, now, so I have that to go to also.

I didn’t listen to Heart of Soul for too long. I guess I just wasn’t in the mood to listen to it or perhaps I was just needing some time without knowledge being put in my head, to just process or enjoy the quiet. Or, maybe, I was just being futless. Whatever the reason, I shut off the music player on my phone and left it off for the rest of the day.

Well, I want to go get myself ready. I have a side clean today and I have no idea how long it is going to take me. From what I’ve been told, it shouldn’t be too bad – 6-ish hours – but I don’t want to get started too late so I can come home before its way too late. I hope everyone has a great day!!!