Left Foot, Right Foot, Repeat…

I have been experiencing more pain the last few days. I’m grateful that I am going to the doctor tomorrow. I tried going in on Friday but apparently I was supposed to schedule an appointment, not just show up, which is what it sounded like the doctor had meant when I went in the first time. Oh well. Tomorrow at 9 it is.

The doctor prescribed a muscle relaxer when I went in right after the accident. I have been taking it at night, right before bedtime, because it makes me sleepy and I can’t get anything done during the day if I take it during the day. My neck, back, and left leg have been waking me up during the night, anyway. Frustrating and a little thought-provoking.

Lance comes home tomorrow. He is getting anxious. He had an follow-up appointment scheduled for tomorrow, but we didn’t think he was getting out until Tuesday, so we agreed to reschedule it. He now has that appointment next Monday. Lance¬†really wants his stitches out but I really doubt they would be doing that tomorrow if he still had the appointment. The stitches are mostly healed but still seeping a little.

They have put him on an anti-anxiety medication, which just makes sense to me. He doesn’t like it. Says it sort of deadens some of his emotions, like having the ability to cry. I think that is probably just part of the acclimation process, but I’m not a doctor. I guess we will just see how it goes.

I am finding that I am having a difficult time with some of what is going on in my world right now. It just seems a bit much. I’m not derailing but…well, I guess part of me wants to just derail and scream at the world. It wouldn’t help, I know, but the feeling is there. I guess I’m just a bit overwhelmed. I guess this is a “Suck it up, Buttercup” moment. Left foot, right foot…

More of my borage plants around the stump are starting to bloom. When I see this, it really makes me happy, gives me a sense of satisfaction. I don’t know whether or not the painted daisies I planted there will end up growing enough to produce flowers, but they haven’t died off and are growing some, if at a really slow pace. The lavender I planted around the stump is getting bigger, but also seems to be growing more slowly.

Out of all the Hydrangea cuttings I had, it looks like I will definitely have one Hydrangea, possibly two. Seems a little disappointing that only that many are making it but it is better than none of them. It’s a start.

I’ve been seeing butterfly bushes growing along the roadside. I desperately want to stop and grab some cutting but I haven’t felt like I had the time to stop. I guess I’m making excuses. I’ve put a knife in the Jeep, now, so I really have no valid excuse for not stopping. I just have to make myself do it and stop having my very own pity party, which I think is really what not stopping is all about.

Anyway, I need to get going. I have a 3 bedroom, 2 bath house to do today. Have a great day, everyone!!


About dragonflygypsyusa

Over-thinker with way too much availability to the internet to research whatever might come to mind, amateur photographer, dog enthusiast, learning every day, working on finding my undamaged self.
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