I’ve been listening to a positive affirmations meditation collection by Deepak Chopra called Soul of Healing Affirmations. The change of seasons, especially from summer to fall, always brings a lot of melancholy and this collection sounded like it could be something that could help with that. The affirmations are done from A-Z (yes, this is where I got the idea for the Focusing on the Positive series) and you can choose one or two or three or how many you feel you need to focus on that day.
I listen to them while I am doing a clean and sometimes when I am falling asleep at night. At work, I am not really focused on the meditations. It is background noise that part of my brain pays attention to while the rest is focused on whatever I am cleaning. Bits and parts will really catch my attention and I listen a bit closer to those affirmation because I believe that, since it caught my attention, it must be an area that I am needing more self-care in. I don’t know if this is right or wrong but I’m going with it. Couldn’t hurt, right?
At night when I listen, I let the meditations carry me off to sleep. What effect they are having on my sleeping mind I have no idea. I have read that the state reached in deep mediation is very similar to a deep sleep state. Sleeping with mediation music and guided meditations playing sounds like a good way to reach my subconscious without getting in my own way or being distracted by whats going on around me and never reaching that Delta state in meditation.
So, now is this working for me? Well, I’m not really sure. I’ve had a few days over the past two weeks of listening to the meditations where I felt…right. Not melancholy, not manic, not emotional but not emotionally dead either. I have had moments of extreme clarity and moments of feeling completely empowered. Maybe its the meditations, maybe its coincidence. Either way, I am grateful for the moments that I have had that have been positive. Any relief from the storm is an amazing accomplishment sometimes.
I didn’t get a chance to listen to the meditations yesterday. We were out painting curb addresses, which really provides no real opportunity to play and/or listen to the mediations. Last night, I was overcome by feelings of defeat. We are working pretty much non-stop and it just wasn’t feeling like we are making any forward movements as a result. I’m tired. I want a few days home to just do nothing, recharge, regain some perspective. Yes, last night I was having the inner pity party and it sucked. I just couldn’t seem to shake off the gloom that had wrapped itself around me.
What is my plan of attack for helping me remove this cloak of despair and defeat? While I am writing this post, I am downloading more meditations onto my phone through Spotify. The focus of the meditations I’m downloading are things like self-esteem, clarity of mind, soul healing, expanding consciousness, attracting wealth (who knows? might work), and open mind. I should have about a full day’s worth of mediations on my phone now. Can you see my cape flapping in the wind behind me? 😉